I am a sexual abuse survivor

I didn’t report it because “I was just a kid.” I didn’t report it because “it was no big deal.” I didn’t report it because I loved and looked up to him — hell, even after everything, I still love him, even if any respect I had is long gone. I didn’t report it because I didn’t have the ability at the time to put into words what was happening, or why it was wrong, or how it made me feel. I didn’t report it because I didn’t think anyone would believe me. I didn’t report it because I was ashamed.
But the biggest reasons I kept quiet is that I thought I was alone, that I was only person this was happening to, and that everything that was happening was my fault.

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Why I never liked Mr. Rogers

Maybe it was the soft, rhythmic voice that bordered on hypnotic. Maybe it was the fact that, for all the smiling he did, he was never actually funny. Or maybe it was just the nature of the show, just him and the audience – me – and the relentless eye contact that came with that format. It was all just one big nope from pre-school me. 

Mark 15 & 16: Empty Tombs of Hope

I’ve been trying to figure out how to wrap up Mark. Because a lot has happened over the last couple chapters, but nothing feels like a stand-alone post. Or rather, everything feels like it's been done over and over and over. Then I saw this tweet over Easter weekend, and everything came into focus. https://twitter.com/prophiphop/status/980434685041020929Continue reading Mark 15 & 16: Empty Tombs of Hope

Mark 14 Part 2 – Judas and Choices

For the Son of Man goes as it is written of him, but woe to that one by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been better for that one not to have been born. ~ Mark 14:21 Oh, Judas. You’ve gone and done it now. I mean, I know he's Judas, … Continue reading Mark 14 Part 2 – Judas and Choices

Mark 14: “The poor will be with you always” is not a directive

Chapter and verse divisions in the bible are not in the original manuscripts. They kinda, sorta evolved over time into the near universal system we have now. So why is Mark 14 so dang long? I have no idea. With all the stuff crammed in here, it sure feels like it could split up into a few … Continue reading Mark 14: “The poor will be with you always” is not a directive

Mark 13: Apocalypse as preparation

When you look at these kids from Stoneman Douglas, and you marvel at their ability to not put up with bullshit non-answers from politicians, what you are actually seeing is the fruit of that same “entitlement mentality” you’ve been bitching about. They feel entitled to real answers. And they are right.